All Summer Breakfast, Act I

So, you know, my dad & I go to breakfast every Sunday at 7:30. This summer, the weekend before Memorial Day as local businesses were beginning to unfurl their awnings, the Judge issued the following edict: that we should go to every establishment in Ocean City that a) is located on the boardwalk; b) serves breakfast (natch); and c) is open at 7:30. So we have been, and this is where we’ve been so far & have still to go.

Week 1: Brown’s, St. Charles & the Boardwalk

Our friend Nick makes the toast & Brown’s is open well into the fall; usually the last weekend for them is Thanksgiving; how I love Thanksgiving. Brown’s reminds me of the gentler climes of October & November. (In truth, I am not much for this summer stuff.) Plus, the name alone is just as toothsome as their blueberry hotcakes. (Somewhat related: I just read this Good article on brownwashing.)

Week 2: Northend Beach Grill (we went a bit out of order), 9 Beach Rd. (and, fair enough: it’s not technically on the boardwalk)

This place is the bee’s knees. I come for the omelettes & sweet potato home fries. (In fact, Miss Williams & I met here last Friday to celebrate her first day of summer break!)

Week 3: Oves, 4th & the Boardwalk

Eh, rather forgettable, I thought; I can’t even find the picture I took. I think I had eggs/an omelette? Still, it’s been a boardwalk institution for years now.

Week 4: George’s, 7th & the Boardwalk

Blueberry “Pan-Pans.” Still, I rather like my hotcakes a bit browner than all this. But Miss Williams was the special guest this week, which is always a plus.

Week 5: Ocean Cafe, 8th & the Boardwalk

Here’s where we spent Father’s Day; even Effie deigned to make an appearance. (She usually isn’t ready for the world at 7:30 on a Sunday.) I think the food was good; I can’t remember. I remember it was cloudy and just so cool, which was nice; I love those cool-cloudy early June days, especially now that it is (it’s official) July, July.

Week 6: Litterer’s, 840 Boardwalk

This is where Effie had her first summer job many moons ago; when she decided, on a whim, to go to the South Jersey shore with a friend; driving out from Western Pennsylvania not knowing who awaited her here. She had only intended to go for the summer. Then she met my dad. Unlike the button mushrooms in my omelette, their romance was perfectly cooked.

Week 7: Bashful Banana, Ocean Colony Walk (b/w 9th & 10th on the Boardwalk)

[This was just a few hours ago.] Delicious wholegrain banana walnut pancakes, which rather reminded me of the banana walnut pancakes I would get at EJ’s when I lived in New York, except that these came with fresh-ground flax, so I will be zippy all day now!

Next week: Clancy’s!
Still to come: Beach Club (a fav), Port-O-Call, and lastly Bob’s.

If we’ve missed a spot, you will remind us, I’m sure.

I also need to blog about recent museum visits & the status of this Somers Point alleyways project (ok, ok, I will, I will. I’ve only been on summer break since Thursday when summer classes ended).

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The Whitmaniacs.

So Tyler & I decided to take a trip to Walt Whitman’s house in Camden on Friday. For years I’ve wanted to make the pilgrimage. “Do you know why the bridge is named for him?” I’ve asked students, and they usually do not, and I offer, “Because Walt spent the last years of his life here in New Jersey. He was ours, at the end.”

As Walt himself said, “Camden was originally an accident…” But perhaps a happy accident for us. (But I remember my friend Fran saying, “When the bridge was named, there was controversy. Because Whitman was gay. And some people didn’t like that.” So we have a “gay bridge” to the City of Brotherly Love; how beautiful.)

So it was, and so we went: just close enough to the bridge but not over it. We were driving towards the waterfront when Tyler spotted the address. “Over there!” A well-executed U-turn put us just outside, on the side of the street where once there were trees, where there is now construction on the road and partial excavation of the Button house next door. This street, once Mickle now renamed MLK Boulevard.

Mickle Street, 1890; with Mary Davis & Watch the dog visible in the doorway.

We rang the bell at one of the row homes. A man above poked his head out from a window upstairs and said he’d be right down. We watched men drinking on another stoop next door. (It was eleven o’ clock in the morning: so noted.) Our guide undid the locks to lead us into a room; popped in an old VHS tape about Camden & Whitman and Whitman in Camden. He returned when the credits started to roll and told us that Whitman’s home was actually the one next door. So we went back outside into the sun & sounds of men working –– to be admitted to Walt’s “shanty,” as Whit, himself, called it.

No pictures were allowed inside the residence where the poet struggled with his many ailments & final verse alterations.

Here’s the front room where he would sit and talk to passing strangers from the street.

1891

Upstairs, the bedroom. We look at a picture of the room during the time of the great, grizzly bard: manuscripts & books scattered everywhere. My inner neat-freak winces a moment. I suppose I could not have lived with you, Walt, not as Mary the housekeeper and her son Warren had; Warren, who slept in the anteroom, to attend to him. Warren, whom Walt sent to massage school so that his fleshy flesh could be properly attended to. There, the deathbed; with a basin pressing out from underneath for when Walt required a sponge bath. (“Warren! Bath time! Warren!” –– one imagines the call.) A cloche bell jar houses a stuffed bird & some foliage. So Victorian. I wonder if Walt himself picked that out or some unknown, interior decorator.

We go back downstairs to the rear parlor. Here, we are told, is where the autopsy on the poet was performed; where they noted his many maladies (bent rib; collapsed lung) and where the poet’s brain was removed, later lost.

Our tour ends in the garden.

After we part from our guide, we set out for the tomb in Harleigh Cemetery. Walt took the money that was donated by fans & his  “disciples,” funds intended for a new house but that paid for this tomb instead. There are names carved into the trees all around. There are tokens left everywhere.

Here lies the rock star.

1893

We drove through the rest of Camden on our way to Collingswood, where we would have boxed lunches. “We could rent artists’ space here,” Tyler suggested, and as I examined the boarded-up edifices & hungry-faced residents, thought, “If good enough for the prophet, then.”

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Two notes: yes, the switch to present-tense in the middle was intentional. No, I have not posted in two weeks; I’ve been so busy with summer classes & some “offline” projects. Forgive me, reader. I will try to be more attendant.

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This Week in Poetry; This Moment in June.

On Tuesday night, Emily & I went to The Boneyard in AC to check out John Gutts & his open mic night.

On the ride home, I admitted to sometimes having a notion to start a cricket farm; to be a farmer of crickets. Em laughed kindly at that, and it is rather absurd, almost grotesque: and not just because of the constant threat of cricket viruses that might wipe out an entire orchestra. But still; still there is something about it. I, too, have long legs like you do, crickets. I understand how jumpy such legs can get at night; how it can be difficult to just be still and to just sit still; how one needs to make music instead; to sing/to not be silent.

I once remember writing a poem titled “The Father of Crickets,” even; it began, “The bathroom has been invaded by them;” crickets on the hearth & toilet. Aren’t there monks who refuse to go outside during the rainy season when crickets are littering the pathways of distant monasteries; for fear of stepping on even a single fiddler, they refrain from the paths?

Wednesday night I met up with some folk from Kathy G’s class at Barista’s in Galloway. Also, Winters was there, and rather put me to shame with his too-good poem with the long-leggedy lines. And Jackie, a friend of Deborah’s, was another new recruit.

I would see Jackie again, the next night, for the Joel Dias-Porter reading at the Linwood Library.

J. DIas-Porter

An open mic preceded him. Em read this poem, which I’ve always loved. Emari read a revision of her poem about Sarah Palin. Afterwards, we went to The Greenhouse in Margate with Joel; had quesadillas & white wine for me & for Em in plastic cups while the blue mal de ojo of Lucy watched us.

“Bli ayin hara.”

We laughed all night until parting. Perhaps the pachyderm was more a nazar; would it lead us to protection? Would it watch over the crickets too? Can it see such very small things as them?

For the next day –– it was June, all of a sudden: June! June! June!

And the next day after that, Gerri & I went and charted all of the alleyways in Somers Point for our summer project. I have ideas now that need to be penned; to be pinned-down. We stopped in Sloop Alley to chat with our friend Rita awhile; and returning from a felafel dinner the next day (Sunday) with Miss Williams –– asked to stop a moment in at the Music Pier, and there was Rita again! carrying out her orchids from the weekend’s flower show. To have seen Rita like a many-armed Lakshmi carting away her wares, twice in as many days, well –– this must bode well for the week & for what is beyond, even; be well for the weak. Well for the crickets & for the father of crickets.

Stretch’s Alley

 

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Netflix Picks for the first weekend of June.

My insistent sister wants me to start weekly recommendations for shows and movies she can watch instantly on Netflix. She has no cable but does have an Internet-ready TV in her attic apartment in Hudson; this is very much the way now, isn’t it?

But what does it really even matter, sister, when I know any free time you have this weekend will invariably be spent watching Felicity?

But I have watched two other quick “chick” flicks in the past few weeks worth mentioning.

Tiny Furniture

Take-away line: “I think you sound like you’re in the epilogue to Felicity.”

I was housesitting for the parents a few weekends back and got to catch up on HBO (i.e., “rich people’s cable”), including Lena Dunham’s new series Girls, which is good; I mean, it’s no Felicity or anything; no My So-Called Life. Anyway, watching the first four episodes of Girls motivated me to check out Dunham’s first feature Tiny Furniture, which has been in the Instant Queue since it was in theaters. You know, it’s interesting to think about it two/three weeks later, because at the time I remember texting Rachel, “You need to watch this movie Tiny Furniture!” –– and gave it four stars! = “really liked it!” –– but now I feel rather, “Well, it was what it was,” about the whole endeavor. But it’s worth checking out. I guess I need to talk to someone about it; perhaps, where at first I was one of the over-zealous, I have climbed up on a picketed fence to take a bit of a breather.

If you watch it, let me know what you think, ok? We’ll talk.

I will say that even though Dunham plays rather uncomfortable, self-absorbed characters in both her series and the movie, there is (of course) the twinge of recognition that all of her generation must find themselves (ourselves) suffering; thus, I do ultimately always find her sympathetic; or want to, anyway. I like her: and I want to like her at times when I am not actively liking her, like in some of those exchanges she has with her mother (played by her real-life mother).

Love and Other Disasters

Take-away line: “Love isn’t always a lightning bolt, you know? Maybe sometimes it’s just a choice.” (Quel existentialist, n’est-ce pas?)

So Rachel recommended this to me, actually –– awhile ago. I watched it the night before I drove up to Hudson. And, Reader, I LOVED IT! Maybe/probably more than I should have. It was just very fun; Brittany Murphy tripping go-lightly around London; looking cute amidst a bevy of attractive men; Catherine Tate (need I say more). What’s not to flip over?

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I need to find time to watch the two, “true” DVDs I have from Netflix (Waltz with Bashir and The Future); maybe one tonight. I used to get SNA (Severe Netflix Anxiety), but not so much anymore. Bashir, for example, has been waiting patiently since January. It can sit a bit longer.

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Notes from a Weekend Spent in Hudson.

I spent Memorial Day weekend with my little sister up in Hudson, NY. It was a lovely escape: from the preoccupations of people & place that one has at home.

On my way up, I stopped at Storm King. My sister had gone a few years back, and we watched Rivers and Tides together when she was home, and I have since wanted to go: for the Goldsworthy, mostly. But mostly just to see what it all was about.

At Storm King.

And it was glorious. The cloudy & then not-cloudy, still-cool late May day collaborated beautifully with the work. It was a very surreal experience: good-surreal, not eviscerating-surreal.

I arrived in Hudson around five o’ clock Friday. I walked over the studio where Rach works. I sat in as she & Henry added strings to a track they were working on. From there, we had dinner at Ca’Mea; calimari for Rach & a shrimp-linguine-leek-asparagus dish for me. Wine was dispensed & drunk.

We went to Swoon.

Swoon Kitchenbar.

The next morning, we woke up and went to the farmer’s market for maple-chipotle goat cheese & some asparagus. We met my sister’s boyfriend at Le Gamin for omelettes and cafés au laits served in big handleless cups one could stick a visage in.

Le Gamin.

Eli went off to work & Rach and I took our time strolling up and down Warren Street; going into shops, into the galleries,

antique stores,

a tag sale;

then having mint lemonades & some crostini as Café Le Perche.

The next morning we would return to Le Perche for a strawberry-rhubarb scone and coffees; the coffees thick with grounds conspiring at the bottom of the cups, as if to prognosticate this is the end of the escape. “I forget,” I might’ve said. “What does le perche mean? La peche is peach; or is it to fish? (Or even to sin)?”

There are plenty of peach-fishes in the sea of sin, mademoiselle. Sois patiente.

“I don’t know,” my sister said, “but we can look it up.”

But then we didn’t. And then I was back, in the thick of it. Summer at the Jersey shore. Driving back; stopping at the Cheesequake rest area, I thought, “There are too many of us in this world,” and felt the renewed need to unclutter everything. To start again. And maybe, even, to allez à la pêche.

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An Apt Expression.

I have started watching (ok, re-watching; fine, re-re-watching) the TV series Felicity on Netflix InstantWatch this week.

I text my sister: “The summer of Felicity has begun!”

(Two summers ago it was “The Summer of Daria,” which, granted, might have been somewhat hipper.)

I remember this series starting just before I embarked on my own career at NYU; recall the show occasionally being filmed around town, on campus; feeling like I was going to school with Felicity somehow, even though we never had any classes together; never ended up at the same parties.

Years later, it may have been rerun on W.E. (yes, Women’s Entertainment) network when I was living and working up in North Jersey. That summer, after my first turbulent semester teaching (just a year or so out of college), I spent far too many hours with Keri Russell (no relation) & Co. I suppose I wanted to go back: it was a way of returning; to New York; to university; to a life free of responsibilities.

Whenever I am confused, I seem to get tangled up in you, Miss Porter; damn you, Felicity! you siren. Let’s have a reckless summer together, shall we? Cut our hair short and take up art. Then grow it all out again.

Let’s go back: to New York; to it all.

I forgot how each episode in the beginning was structured by Felicity’s uncomfortable voice-over narration: tapes she recorded for her friend Sally; and then each episode would end with Sally’s somewhat pat responses. Of course, now I want to send cassette tapes to friends; but I can’t find my cassette recorder; and who still has a means to play tapes anymore? I love that no one has cell phones in Felicity’s world; that there are still pay phones. If you look closely, you might even see a subway token or two. And a pink Power Ranger. And Brian Krakow. And me, somewhere in the background. (I am looking.)

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Connections.

Even though it is not yet Memorial Day, it’s sort of the academic’s summer already. Graduation last week (last post). Now summer classes have started.

Friday Miss Williams and I took to Atlantic City.

Saturday I went to Margate with the folks.

Sunday it was breakfast at Browns on the boardwalk.

I find it difficult to sit indoors anymore. I find myself just walking around. After class today I went to the Starbucks to work, but then felt just this great peripatetic urge to be out in perambulation; in circulation.

Also, my cable went out on Friday; and I have rather just let it go out. A technician is scheduled to come on Friday but I have a great desire to cancel the appointment; to return the box to its maker and say, “No more for me; thanks. Just leave me the phone and the Internet for now.” Part of the reason London was so lovely that year was because I abstained (for the most part) from TV, except when over at someone else’s, where it would glow like a phantasm from the corner of strangers’ rooms. Goose, Anne and I would sometimes watch DVDs together on one of our laptops. Pressed like fancy sandwiches into my twin bed; but remember those hideous lime green sheets that came standard issue?

I will miss the rest of Mad Men, though, if I allow the cable to just go. Who will invite me over to watch the second half of this season?

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On Commencement and Analepsis Shock.

NYU’s ceremony in Washington Square Park

We had commencement at the college in Mays Landing today. It was a perfect day; the kind of day in May that is cool and when everything is in bloom (the graduates; the trees) and when one wants never to be indoors again; like, all the buildings could just be torn down and that would be ok; and we could all start again, in a world without indoor spaces.

I have been thinking of this: of starting again.

All the graduates line up in their blue gowns with their caps and tassles, and I go into that Whitmanian trance, thinking, “I was where you all are now, more than a decade ago now it was. I, too, wore that same blue gown and went out into the world like you now will.” I had no expectations then. I was trying to think: what did I expect? I expected nothing, like the Danish, who are so happy because they have such realistic expectations for life, and are thus rarely disappointed. I have become more American since then, I fear; thus, unhappier and more restless.

We sat, beneath the trees. I watched Kathy Graber, our visiting professor, assume the dais with the other distinguished guests. She was not asked to speak today. I desperately wanted her to say something to us; no, just to me (but also: say nothing, the better; sometimes I just get so tired of so many words spoken, you know, Kathy?). I sat next to Bob H––, an adjunct professor of history, who had been my GT teacher in middle school. I thought of middle school: of that pudgy little ball of flesh and thick glasses who was molded into this man now; proud to be shaped by experience, still.

When the names began to be read, I turned inward, like a glass reflecting the sun and the words, kindling the gem-like flame. I remember hearing the J‘s announced and, when I shook myself from my thoughts, we were on the S‘s. I slipped away, into a sort of analepsis state, falling backwards through a decade. Then, prolepsis set in: imagining something new for us; for all of us.

For some of the students, I know, it will be like being pushed from the nest, this; some will return, their wings too fragile to fly off. Others have been chomping at the bit. Still more go up to receive their diplomas without much thought: just the next/another stage. Sometimes I think about the students who took their final exam for one of my classes, left, and I never see them again; sort of so, so that was that-style an exit. Still, I think about them, and wonder if they ever do the same. (I want to believe that our connections to other people are more than just random assignments; that they have meaning. That is what scared me most about Buddhism when I was 19/20: that I might have to eventually renounce individual connections in order to be Connected; why I told Bob I do not prefer to teach online anymore, even though it’s inexorable.)

I went to Starbucks after, but there was an accident on the Black Horse Pike. But I was in no hurry; was even a bit happy to be delayed. One guy, standing beside his mangled car (no one appeared seriously injured) was wearing a ratty tank and baggy camo cargo shorts. I wondered, Would he have worn that had he known he was going to be standing in the middle of the roadway being gawked at by rubberneckers? But how does one plan for such things; how should we know?

I sat at Starbucks and thought of nothing but how good the coffee tasted; each sip, so warm, like a salve. I do not care about living longer, only better, which is the more difficult, of course. I have always thought that I just want––for me and for my students and friends, for us all to be compassionate intellects: just want for that to be enough for us somehow.

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Who Said It This Week? (5/8–5/15)

The End of the Semester

Match the texts with the authors:

A. Caroline
B. Miss Williams
C. Winters
D. Effie/maman
E. Rachel/my little sister

1. “So, I just realized that all of the classical great earth-shattering jazz recordings of the 50s… Like Miles Davis, John Coltrane, Thelonious Monk, all the GREATS… Were recorded by a guy in Jersey at his parents’ house where he was living… Working as an optometrist during the day… I’ve known this, but for some reason the parallel between that and us as ‘Emily Dickinson children’ finally clicked.”

2. “Unfortunately, I don’t think smart people are reproducing at a high enough rate.”

3. “When I see a parent feeding their toddler those Lunchables, I consider it child abuse.”

4. “You’ll recognize me by my sloppy seasonal garb.”

5. “A perfect day for the Shore Mall. What will you get there? Melancholy and discount socks?”

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Excerpts from a Friday Night Conversation on Miss Williams’ Porch.

Miss Williams!

Mr. Russell! Your present, Mr. Russell!

I love it! I love. This summer: terrariums and Cornell boxes, then!

(And alleyways. And Whitman. And Wilde. But no more Bosies. Bosies are bad for business.)

I brought you a few copies of the literary magazine to have with dinner.

You said you wanted to have a beer that tasted like London and butterflies. I tried my best, Mr. Russell.

It’s perfect, Miss Williams.

Who’s that pulling up in front? Why, it’s Helen Mirren!

Helen? –– Oh, Linda! It’s Linda!

Hello.

Hello.

Hello.

I hope I’m not intruding.

Never, Linda, never. Come sit with us. Come sit.

I hear it’s almost your birthday.

Yes.

(I met you when you were sixteen.)

(When I was fourteen, Linda. A freshman.)

(Ohgoodness. Fourteen!)

Linda, let me show you the plan for my garden. I’m planning a front-yard garden. Herbs. Lettuce. Kale. Some radishes. Perhaps an eggplant or two.

Yes, this will be perfect for it.

I have always wanted to be a landscape architect.

(Ever since you were fourteen?)

(Maybe even since then, Linda; yes.)

Look, here comes Uncle Bob! Hello, Uncle Bob! Hello!

Hello, Uncle Bob!

I don’t think I’ve met Uncle Bob.

Uncle Bob, you remember Mr. Russell. And this is Linda Prady.

This evening. Could you imagine a more perfect one?

I could not, Uncle Bob.

(If only we could enclose it in a terrarium to preserve. And somehow grow Karen’s radishes in it, too. Can you grow radishes in a terrarium, Linda?)

(I don’t think you can. Radishes need fresh air. They need room, you know. Not “a room of one’s own.” Just room.)

I need to go check on mom –– on your aunt across the street. But I’ll be back.

Goodbye, Uncle Bob!

Goodbye!

And I’m going to leave you two to your evening now.

Goodbye, Linda!

Goodbye, Linda!

Goodbye!

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